| Wednesday, June 29th, 2005 |
| 10:19 am |
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| Sunday, May 22nd, 2005 |
| 11:33 pm |
Im sleeping my way out of this one with any one who will lie down.
So Life Pretty much sucks for me excpt for tonight. hope fully ill get laid in the next week. i still love her but i met this other girl who will never take her place but seems enough like her to drive me nutz. i dont know what im going to do, but if she makes the frist move it wont be my fault. i think she might. Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: 7minuets in heven- Fall Out Boy |
| Friday, May 13th, 2005 |
| 5:29 pm |
breaking hearts never looked so cool
if you know what its like to have your heart riped out and thrown on the floor, you have no clue how i feel my life was getting better then it fell over and took a nose dive so im probally gonna move to new york and become a rodie and waste the next few years of my life doing that in stead of moving out to california like i already planned on because of certian events and ppl. so when you hear the sound of the wind blowing know that im probally thinking of you and when your heart skips a beat know that theres a memory of us being played in my head Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: Fall Out Boy-Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying |
| Monday, May 2nd, 2005 |
| 2:20 pm |
What are dreams to you?
I've been haveing these weird dreams... well there not as much weird as they are just not who i am. i've been having these dreams where i cheat on my girlfriend and i know it, i feel bad but im afraid to tell her. does this make me a bad person? or just weird |
| Wednesday, April 27th, 2005 |
| 2:27 pm |
messy room? NO FONE FOR YOU!
i got all my shit back saturday nite. thats cool i saw bowling for soup on sunday. im still grounded though life still sucks the one person i want to be with i'm not allowed to see because of this. when does this shit end? whatever! i dont care "jack doesnt give a shit any more". learned a new song on guitar yesterday life out side of home is ok i guess..... wait back to my home life last night i got yelled at for my room being messy then my girlfriend calls and i was told to get off untill i was done. i was like ok thats cool, ill call u back. like 5min later they take my fone away and my ipod. my mom says "your on the fone all the time anyway". thats soo not fucken true, i just got that shit back and i've used like a total of like 50min. not even a fucken hour of calls. what ever man i really dont care about it no one calls me any way, no one wants to talk to me, not even her. aparently they wanna move to miami or laudderdale, i wont go i dont want to leave here i need to find some place to go soon so i can go to school and get a job and have a place to stay. i cant stand living with them any more any way. my mom has changed soo much and it pisses me off. shes not the same any more excpt when shes not around her boyfriend or man what ever the fuck his title is idk. Current Mood:  annoyedCurrent Music: Fall Out Boy-Home Sick at Space Camp |
| Monday, April 18th, 2005 |
| 1:16 pm |
WHATS YOUR PROBLEM!
i love how people lie to me all the time. you say one thing and do another. i always find things out and its horible. make up your fucken mind why dont you. this hurts more than anything will ever. you have no ideia. make up ur fucken mind. i know thats why you havent answerd my inquireies. what do you want from me.this is just making me worse. just because u cant be with me physically your with him. wow. wheres the fucken justafacation to that. "i hope you choke on thoes word that kiss that bottle". im not around so its ok to forget about it all. for get about every thing. i dont get you any more Current Mood:  PISSEDCurrent Music: The All-American Rejects-The Last Sad song |
| Monday, April 4th, 2005 |
| 2:41 pm |
Does any one have the cure? I'll take it...
So ive done some bad things. about a month ago i burned my brother, i never meant for thre match to hit him... It did and theres no turning back. they think it was in tentional. about a few weeks later, he needed some gass X, he has stomach problems and i told him pills are for quiters and that next day he told his teacher b/c he still was in pain from the cramping. Apperently i could go to jail and what i've done is considered child abuse, but my moms b/f has decided to punish me and i now i have nothing all my stuff has been taken away. i can only do homework, chores and watch tv. the other day a certian someone came by and tryed to bring me somthing.that act prolonged my punishment. apperently i have to pay for the things my friends do. my mom decided for me not to go to prom. i was soo upset but at the same time not b/c it was her choice and not his. it really brought down my hopes of seeing her. i miss her with everything in me. some times i wonder if she still wears my ring? or if she realy feels the way she says she does. im tired of the lies ppl tell me every day. i get lied to by my mom and by my friends. i dont belive in any thing or any one any more. i come to realize that my life is shit and "m counting down the days till california comes". i want to move there after i finish my AA at CC. may be it'll be sooner. i dont know if ill leave my mom and my brother b4 then but i do know that i love them and her at what ever cost. Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: The Starting Line-Lasting Impressions |
| Saturday, March 26th, 2005 |
| 3:44 pm |
Do I have any takers?
So I have nothing my life is going to ruins. my moms b/f sucks weather, she likes it or not. My girlfriend ran away from home, i found out today. I dont know whats wrong with her, but i think i know whats up. So on that note im @ a friends house doing some stuff for my mom cuz we dont have a working computer. I am currently looking for a prom date since my first choice is probally not gonna talk to me. so to this is to anyone who lives in Plam Beach County. I need a prom date so send a pic of ur self and why you would like to go with me in a self addressed envelope to XXXX X woods edge circle Palm Beach Gardens fl, 33410. If u would like to see a pic of me u can see one at facethejury.com my user name is hobbitsopunk. so yeah prom is April 16th. so.... yeah. and to whome it may concern happy 11 months. -u think life is hard... try living in my shoes! Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: Bensin-Thin Air |
| Thursday, December 16th, 2004 |
| 12:09 am |
X-mass or Christmas?
I havent updated in a while b/c i dont have a computer or a phone line so...yeah christmas is gonna be hard this year b/c i have some one to have it with and i wanna get her somthing and i have no clue what to get her. well.... idk i think i have somthing in mind i just hope i can still get it when i get paid on the day b4 christmas eve. im really paranoied abuot getting somthing for her. owell i figure somthing out. Current Mood:  highCurrent Music: Help Save The Youth Of America From Exploding- Less Than Jak |
| Monday, October 25th, 2004 |
| 1:15 pm |
tv isnt all that its cracked up to be.
wow i so didnt write that last entry. thats fucken weird. oh well.on a kewler note i was on the television. it was alright but the mixed attention i got was kinda annoying. i mean i guess i wasent excited enough kuz ppl were overly excited for me so idk and then there were ppl that hated me bkuz of it but i mean whau ever man. but bsides that i had an awsome trip. i got to meet henry winkler and took kewl pics of bongs and of white castle. i cant wait to get to sleep Current Mood:  sleepyCurrent Music: bigger oicture- Less Than Jake |
| Friday, October 22nd, 2004 |
| 1:30 am |
I wish I had testicles. Then I'd be cool. I've been wasting my life trying to be accepted, but truth be told, having blue hair makes me look like a retard. Maybe I should just go gay. |
| Wednesday, October 20th, 2004 |
| 11:10 pm |
NY what a trip
the first two day have been riddeled with way too many jokes to even think about starting to list. As much as ive been having fun i feel left out of things kuz my friend are all like do this nick and im like no and automatically im gay, because of some previous act that ive done. but b sides that im good. ive been having fun i saw henrey winkler asa "the fonz". i saw the producers that was best show ever, and so far ive been comended for my blu hair. today was cool i was at the tony danza show i got a free shirt. and saw the guy from roswell and i got to touch some 47yo ladies abs. and she gave me a book that ill never read and i got a cd that ill never listen to. and we went to this fashion and life show witch was the gayest show ever. the gorls pole danced on the way home. it was kool. thats all for now more tomorrow later Current Mood:  crazyCurrent Music: all my best friends are metal heads- less than jake |
| Sunday, October 10th, 2004 |
| 9:32 am |
the jesus of suburbia is really a lie
too much fucked up stuff has happened and i dont under stand any of it. its really horrible. i want to get as far away from here as i can for school after i get my AA at pbcc then im outta her like a home runn at a base ball game(wow sports analligies thats a first) i havent updatded in a while b/c i still dont have a computer and its bull shit i need a new one. no i want a new one. i need to get a fucken start up disk and to fix my old one but, id rather have a new one and not bother with the old one at all. to all who care im getting a new cell number in a week if your special ill call you and let you know the number dont cry when i have a new number and i dont have your number cuz then i cant tell you the new one. if that made any sense. i bleached my hair if any one cares. and ill be leaving for NY a week from wensday so that'll probally be the next time i update is when im at the hotel. i cant wait to go but i dont wanna leave my babe. i will miss her soo much when im gone but i know ill be back and she'll be waiting at the terminal when i get home. well i think thats about all for today. un till next time. Current Mood: apatheticCurrent Music: GreenDay- Holliday |
| Wednesday, August 25th, 2004 |
| 2:32 pm |
Fate? where?
I'm at my good buddy hunters and my computer is officailly dead and its pissing me off i have to call gateway and order some recovery cd from them. idk ive been up to a lot latly btwn work skool and ppl i really dont have much to put to paper..... thats not correct but what ever yeah oooooh corn dogs are ready!!!! -needing a hair cut Current Mood:  chipperCurrent Music: Good-Bye in gassoline- Less Than Jake |
| Saturday, July 24th, 2004 |
| 12:28 am |
what an interesting quiz i love rpg's i had a good day tyna spent the night last night that was kewl i wanted to be with her all night when i was at work, and today we went to the beach wich was kewl i never go to the beach but idk i had a lotta fun there with her, i love how close we are. its awsome being able to talk to some one and trust them the last time i though i was "in love" i think the chick.... or what ever was not and just .... wanted some one telling them nice things about them. some times i think she ruined a lot of things for me, because i gave way too much in that relationship if you could call it that i mean 1/2 if we werent making out or doing what ever we were fighting and by fighting i mean her yelling at me or pouting about somthing not going her way or her flirting with other guys behind my back. now that i think about it i have no fucken clue why i wanted to stay with that or even stood any of her shit. on a better and way more awsome note: i'm going to warped tour with tyna it'll be way awsome i wanted to go to warped tour last year and i missed out, and after that were going to orlando for an entier week or till friday yeah i cant wait. -me rip oogs head off Current Mood: ecstaticCurrent Music: Less Than Jake-National Anthem |
| Wednesday, July 21st, 2004 |
| 8:22 am |
if she did this to herself then why am i hurting so bad?
i need her to watch my brother while i go to work, so she comes over and watches him. after work she pickes me up and we go back to my house and watch tv. it gets late my mom says she can stay, i tell her to call home, she says wait. shes soo hard-headed i hate to say it but its true. she spends the night in the morning she has to pick up her mom from work. she called me later saying that she was on her way back to my house and that she was taking the bus, apperntly her mom wouldnt give her the keys so she took the bus. through out the day i told her that i didnt want her in troubble. im afraid i wont see her agian. i love her soo much, if she loves me back at all she should at least listen to me. i mean am i wrong for saying that i mean her mom calls me this morning asking where she is and i tell her shes here and she comes and picks her up and im sitting here in pain wondering when the next time it will be untill i see her smile agian. i feel soo hurt right now, and i couldnt say exactly why. -i feel an "i told you so" comming on Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: randome downstrokes i play on my guitar |
| Sunday, July 18th, 2004 |
| 7:22 pm |
Busting my ass for no one
so my dad comes by at like 9 this morning and ive been moving stuf boxes and what not to his truck and i quit doing somthing for 2sec and hes on my ass telling me that he wants to finish today and to get moving when my cuzin is playing ball with my littel brother i mean what the hell is that about, on top of that he drops me off at my moms place and leaves and is like ill be back with the stuff to fix your bed and while you are waiting clean out the room so we can have enough room to do this. so im like ok, and im over her busting my ass to get the room cleard out i finially do and 2 hours later he comes back just to pick up my cuzin and leave. so now its like 5 right. another 2 hours later i call him and he says he'll be here soon and 1/2 later which is now hes still not here and im saposed to go out with tyna to night b/c shes finally back (YEAY!!), but now i think im too pissed off at him to even wanna go. i also cleaned most of the friggn house and i think i sould get somthing for doing so. there were boxes every where and i found places for them and yeah. -im about to break Current Mood: PISSED!!!!Current Music: Linkin Park-One Step Closer |
| Saturday, July 17th, 2004 |
| 10:09 pm |
what a mediocre day
so i was at work i look across the mall and i see a pink haird girl walks into the mall, now at this point in time im excited i thought it was her i was like "yes i get to see her for the 1st time in 7 days". i should have known better it wasnt her i guess that just shows how much i really do miss her, i just cant wait till shes back in my arms. after work i found out while i was working my dad had a lady friend whith him while him my mom and my brother were moving, at this point im angry. im angry at my dad not because hes dating or what ever b/c i have no problem with either of my parents doing that(even though there not offically devorced)just dont bring that person around it really pissed me off even though i wasent there, i dont know what the hell is going on btwn them but whatever man. i like my old dad. this new guy he's become seems fake i mean it doesnt seem like him. i miss my dad. i dont like what he's become my moms never been alright in the head but shes alright now i guess shes ok. i mean she lets tyna stay over she trust me more now than be for. i feel really stressed out and i need some one to hold me. i cant wait till tyna gets home so she could do that. -i miss her soo much. Current Mood:  stressedCurrent Music: Less Than Jake-Bigger Picture |
| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 |
| 8:11 am |
insomnia
its after 8am. the bus finally came to come take my brother to summer school. i cant go back to sleep. i cant see how though, i didnt get to sleep till 3 last night. you know shes only been gone 4 day but, i miss her more than anything in the world. **randome moment** the chick on tv has blue hair **end randome moment** i feel like i need her, it weird ive never felt like this b4 about ne one else. i think if we never started dating i'd still feel the same because i would spend alot of time with her either way. i really love her and it breaks my heart to have her away like this, need to see her even if its for one moment i want to be able to touch her just for one second. - I need a hug Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: Blink-182- I miss you |
| Sunday, July 11th, 2004 |
| 9:24 pm |
Remember me!
Hey i havent had a computer for a while. so i've been broken off from the rest of the world. i've been good my 4th of july was ok. i had fun but i should have had some one with me, and whats weird is what made me realize that was seeing a sea turtle lay its eggs idk why its just made me want to be with her soo bad. My parents seem to have switched personailities over the past 6 monts. i just noticed that today and it really weirds me out that my mom is kewler about things that used to piss her off, but i guess it wroks out for me, im having a good time. saw RBF and Catch 22 on the 8th. what an awsome show. i had soo much fun.the pit was crazy and dancing with tyna was alot of fun. It made me feel bad that im probally going to miss out on warped tour.....agian. i made a promis to my self that i wasent going to miss it but, this ones outta my hands. im really excited less than jakes new cd comes out July 20th and so does the new Aqua teen Hunger force DVD. i kno what im going to buy in 9days Well, shes gone. She went to her dads and i wont see her for an entier month because when she gets back i'll be gone, but hopefully i wont go. i can only hope right? i miss her soo bad though it hurts for her to be away like this. im sure it'll hurt even more when im gone shes only been gone for like 2 days but, she comes and sees me so often that time apart like this hurts sooo much. the only thing i can do is wait for her to come home. Current Mood:  frustratedCurrent Music: Mad Caddies-Just One More |
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